I hope she doesn't read this

July 22, 2016


Among this crazy internet phenomenon, the first person that comes up to my mind is my little sister. Me? Let's say I'm old enough to understand what's good and what's not and I can very well maintain my health by putting down phone when I don't really need it (this fails often, still trying). My sister, though. With her age in this world, how can you as a big sis not being concerned about what kind of friends she's making, or which place she's going, or what activities outside home she's doing, when even now youngsters in our country are rooting to a wrong role model? (I mean, hashtag goals.)

It is always ball in her court, but as fussy as a useful big sis that I am, I often share a piece of good writing to her via instant messaging, or just to be less annoying I sometimes give insights in between our jokes so she won't feel like I'm giving her a speech because it will be freaking boring. Apparently she's just being her fifteen year old self, counter-attacking the jokes and all but deep inside I know she understands.

In between my concern as an annoying big sis, I am very grateful to have a sister like my sister, though. I was relieved to see my sister picked her high-school based on its environment. It means she knows what she wants and she doesn't want, and she's sane enough to understand that environment makes a big influence in her life, or whatever it means I still feel grateful.

Nothing saddens me more than a feeling of being a worthless big sis. I hope I can stay longer so I can spend a lot of my time with her. Even though she's annoying sometimes. And, God, such a stubborn teenager she is.

I hope as she grows up she would be as brave as she is now, and if the world is cruel to her, I believe she'd slay whatever it is in front of her. But just if she needs someone to face them, I hope she knows I'll always be there.

For now let's pray she'd get rid of her fear of taking a bath while she's alone at home.

Eid & Life Updates

July 16, 2016

It's been about a week past Hari Raya, everything is running very fast!! Eid vibes cuma kerasa pas lebaran dan hari setelah lebaran aja, ya, huhu sedih. Itu pun karena lebaran tahun ini lagi-lagi dirayakan bareng keluarga besar. Buat yang lebarannya sendirian mungkin abis shalat ied langsung tidur lagi.

I feel very grateful to have a chance spending Eid with my big family, cousins, aunties, uncles, nephews maybe (soon, next Eid I'll have one!). After my grandmother passed away last year, the bond between the family member grows even tighter, I think. I am very grateful of that. I hope she smiles up there.







I hope it isn't too late to say; Happy Eid, everyone! May this year always brings you blessings, I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've made, etc. I didn't really give people this kind of greetings, anyway. Remember the old days when we bother to search for a catchy line for Eid greetings? Good times, indeed.

Also!!! Pokemon Go. I've tried the game, I don't install it on my phone, though. Soalnya belum keluar yang officialnya di Indonesia. Haha even though it's out already I doubt myself to install and play it regularly. Nggak tau, ya, padahal dulu suka-suka aja sama Pokemon. Hanya saja sepertinya kalau main itu kita bakal susah berhenti, terus kayak diperbudak game. Ya hape gak pake game aja udah ketergantungan apalagi diinstall game gituan. But it really is such a hype, I tend to laugh hard on the jokes and news about Pokemon Go, and I love to see people catching pokemon in the middle of the density of a bus. Lol human.

Life updatessss, err... Nothing really exciting is happening. I'm still struggling to wake up and dress up as morning as possible, the hustle bustle busway and Jakarta's traffic jam (not gonna explain this), arriving at home every nine pm, yas basically just living my internship life. Good times!! I challenged myself to not to complain about things but to be more grateful for what I have & what I've been through up till now. I realized life is more colorful that way, don't you think?

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